June 2020

Dear Blessed One,

I've been watching the bizarre world happenings with curiosity while feeling into all that is getting stirred within my own being. It has been quite revealing, difficult and exciting to see remnants of judgment, anger and resistance come up for awareness, integration and ultimately transcendence. I've experienced big waves of sadness while sitting with a sort of empty feeling of impotence. How might I better serve the world? What is my part in this drama? Where is the fairy-dust of awakening that can be crop-dusted over the world?

As I continue watching, I'm having a mild deja vu feeling as all these world symptoms remind me sooo much of the experience of awakening.

When I was going through the initial awakening in 2008 (especially the kundalini awakening), I went crazy. I experienced uncontrollable emotions, thoughts like a tornado in my head, flash thoughts of suicide, exhaustion with bursts of manic kind of energy, hopelessness, inappropriate blurt-outs, and the list goes on. While having no idea what was going on, all conditioning that was not serving me was being burned off and it was intense! It was like having the rug of life pulled out from under me and I didn't have a clue as to who I was or how to be myself without all the old props.

So now, I have this sense that humanity is in a scalding hot cauldron of awakening. The belief structures, programming and societal structures that do not serve humanity, mother earth and all her inhabitants are being burned off. In order for healing, integration and transcendence to occur, that which does not serve awakening needs to come to the surface for awareness (a big purge!).

As one awakens, your vibration literally increases. When vibration accelerates, lower density vibrations (old wounds, shadow material, rigid belief structures) can no longer hold on. The higher frequency spins the sludge to the top for release. Breathe into the frequential upgrade. The process is usually not pretty but the outcome is beautiful.

Humanity is somewhere between the dark night of the soul and the ultimate awakening. It can be messy, painful and confounding!

Tips to support the awakening process:
• Keep life as SIMPLE as possible. If it's not an absolute "have to", leave it.
• Spend as much time in nature as you can...even if it's sitting in a tiny patch of grass in your own yard.
• Keep your diet super simple, limiting processed foods, alcohol, sugar and caffeine. Eat plenty of fresh veggies and fruit.
• Allow the mind to be as crazy as it can be. Just notice when it begins its babble and take attention elsewhere...a flower, an emotion, breath, your bottom on the chair, anything other than listening to the mind.

In the place of stillness (not listening to the mind), you can be gently guided by a much wiser essence...the Creative Impulse of life itself. You Are That! From Wisdom comes responses rather than reactions, and responses may look fierce. A passionate response comes through love instead of righteousness, old wounds, or rigid beliefs.

It may be helpful to see a list of some of the symptoms of dark night of the soul and awakening:
Dark Night:
•You feel isolated from everything
•You feel abandoned by God
•Your mood is almost always low and melancholic
•You're lost and don't know which direction is right
•You feel despair and horror when observing the world
•You feel a sense of existential dread
•You feel deep tiredness in your bones
•You lack the motivation to keep doing what you used to
•You've lost interest in most things
•You keep pondering the deep questions of life
•You feel like you don't belong on this planet
Awakening:
•You feel as though your life is false
•You crave for meaning and purpose
•You begin asking deep questions
•You realize that a lot of what you've been taught is a lie
•You feel completely lost and alone
•You see through the illusions of society
•You see how unhappy most people are
•You want to 'purge' your life
•You begin experiencing deep empathy and compassion
•You desire to be alone
•Conversations seem shallow
•You want to quit your job
•You thirst for authenticity and truth
•You become aware of old negative habits
•You experience anxiety and/or depression
•You become more sensitive
•You want to make the world a better place
•You deeply want to understand who you are
•Your intuition is heightened
•More synchronicity
•You feel more wonder and curiosity
•You start to love unconditionally
•You see that we are all One
(https://lonerwolf.com/spiritual-awakening/)

Love is calling us Home. Let's all go together. ♥

Much Love and Blessings to You,
shellee rae

"Spiritual illumination enables us to relax our personal efforts and rely more and more on Divinity unfolding and revealing Itself as us." ~ Joel Goldsmith